It has officially been six weeks and three days since my surgery. I have lots to update you about since my last post.
#1 - I am getting around just fine! Whoop! Whoop! My mother-in-law works in a nursing home and has helped me out by bringing an electric wheelchair to me at school. It has made my life so much easier there. I still have trouble getting around a few places at school, but for the most part, I am motor scootin' just fine. :) She also let me borrow a regular wheelchair for the house. It is so much easier than the office chair.
#2 - My foot is feeling better every day. The incision on the inside of my foot has been healing beautifully. The scabs are about all gone and all that is left is a scar. The incision on the outside of my foot is healing also, just not as fast as the other one. It is still scabbed up and sometimes looks horrible because of my foot sweating inside the sock and boot I wear all day. I can tell that it is healing though, so that is good. The pin in my foot bothers me from time to time because I can now feel it. If I remember to take my medicine it helps tremendously.
#3 - I go back to see Dr. Witt on Friday, March 9th at 8:20 a.m. He said he would take x-rays at that time and would most likely be pulling the pin out of my foot. I am so anxious to get the pin out. I can feel it from time to time throughout the day and it really bothers me. My kids at school have asked numerous times to show them pictures of my foot. I really am not comfortable with that. I totally would do it if I thought parents would be okay with it, but there is always one parent that wouldn't be, and I don't want to offend them. So, as a compromise, I told the kids that when they take the pin out of my foot I would ask to keep the pin and show them.
#4 - In the past 2-3 weeks I have been getting incredibly frustrated with my lack of independence. I think my family is too. They don't understand that I just can't "crutch my way" places. First of all, it wears me out. Secondly, and most importantly, I am scared of falling and having to start this whole ordeal over again. I am so tired of having to ask for help with things. I am tired of not being able to just get up and do the things I want/need to do. It absolutely SUCKS... Until you have your ability to walk taken away you have no idea how much we take it for granted. While I have always respected people who are permanently in my situation, I have a new found respect for them. It is incredibly difficult to get around in a world that is meant for walking people. While there are accommodations at some places, there are little to none other places. It sucks...
For now, I'll just suck it up and hang in there. In less than a week I'll hopefully be closer to being on the home bound stretch of this journey. Keep your fingers crossed and pray for me!
Sunday, March 4, 2012
As of Friday, March 2, 2012, at 6:12 a.m. I am the mother of a teenager. OMG! I can't believe it has been 13 years since Allison was born. It just doesn't seem possible. She was such a tiny little girl when she was born, weighing just 6 pounds 12 ounces and 19 inches long. She had a TON of dark dark hair. It was so dark it was almost black, and she had so much hair that she was able to wear ponytails from the day she was born. (And, she never lost any of her hair like most babies do.) She had a beautiful little, round, rosy cheeked face and blue eyes. She was immediately "momma's girl".
We wrapped her up like a burrito a couple days after she was born and headed home with her. Little did we know how much more we'd fall in love with her and all the joy she'd bring us over the next 13 years. (A little frustration too, but that is to be expected with any kiddo. )
When Allison Layne was a tiny baby she didn't like sleeping in her crib. She preferred sleeping in her swing. Momma always slept close by in an oversized chair to keep an eye on her ever moving swing and we BOTH slept great. Daddy, however, really didn't like that Momma would leave Ally in the swing all night. He thought she should sleep in her bed. I had to remind him a few times that he needed to remember that she and I both actually got some sleep this way. lol
As Allison got older she became very independent and strong-willed. Some days there were lots of struggles to get her to cooperate. (Still are sometimes) But, there were also days that she just wanted to be Momma's "mini me". Her favorite color was purple, she loved the ice cream truck, drawing and coloring were fun to her, and she really liked "fixing" her hair with about 10 different ponytails at one time. She won an art contest and had her picture, "Americows" hanging in the George Bush Presidential Museum and Library when she was in kindergarten. She learned to play soccer and loved it.
As she entered her preteen years Allison started maturing a bit. She really loved Hannah Montana and the Disney Channel. SpongeBob Squarepants also became a favorite of hers. It was during this time that Allison started learning how to swim competitively. She was like a fish in water and once she learned how to compete, gave her competitors a run for their money. It was so fun to watch her swim.
Now that she is, gulp, a teenager, Allison is really maturing. She doesn't spend as much time watching the Disney Channel as before. She does, however, still love to watch SpongeBob... She has taken a break from competitve swimming and is now playing soccer. She is taller than me measuring in at about 5'7" and is doing math at school that really makes me think. (Pretty soon, it will be over my head. lol) She has also earned 1st chair playing flute in the band, taking after me, I guess. :) She's still incredibly headstrong and stubborn, but she wouldn't be my Ally otherwise.
Happy 13th birthday Ally! I hope your 13th year is amazing! I love you more than chocolate and to the moon and back!